1.2.05
From "Dog's Eye"
Falling. Slowly falling. I think I'm slowly falling. Can I be falling? I must be falling. That must be the what I feel. The wind. The wind rushing by so slowly. Because I'm falling. Falling slowly. Right? The speed will inevitably pick up. I presume so, at least. When I fall, I tend to fall deep. Too deep. But that's where I'm most comfortable. So far down I can't get up is what comforts me. Doesn't it? Or am I just in denial? I'm probably in denial, but if I'm not certain then that means I might not be in denial at all. Or does it? Well, whether or not I'm in denial when I'm that far down isn't the issue. What is the issue? Oh yeah. I'm falling. I think. Am I? Oh well. I fall too easily, anyway. I'm probably falling. That doesn't matter this time, though, right? Because if I am in fact falling I know that there's a safety net down there. Right? Right. I know there is. A big safety net to catch me. Falling is ok. It's ok to fall. One can't help but fall for whatever reason. It's inevitable at times. But I can hide it. I can. Can't I? I know how to. I hide falling so much it's like a second nature to me. No one will know. No one can ever know. No one will ever know.
I must be falling. Can I be falling? I think I'm slowly falling. Slowly falling. Falling.
Falling. Slowly falling. I think I'm slowly falling. Can I be falling? I must be falling. That must be the what I feel. The wind. The wind rushing by so slowly. Because I'm falling. Falling slowly. Right? The speed will inevitably pick up. I presume so, at least. When I fall, I tend to fall deep. Too deep. But that's where I'm most comfortable. So far down I can't get up is what comforts me. Doesn't it? Or am I just in denial? I'm probably in denial, but if I'm not certain then that means I might not be in denial at all. Or does it? Well, whether or not I'm in denial when I'm that far down isn't the issue. What is the issue? Oh yeah. I'm falling. I think. Am I? Oh well. I fall too easily, anyway. I'm probably falling. That doesn't matter this time, though, right? Because if I am in fact falling I know that there's a safety net down there. Right? Right. I know there is. A big safety net to catch me. Falling is ok. It's ok to fall. One can't help but fall for whatever reason. It's inevitable at times. But I can hide it. I can. Can't I? I know how to. I hide falling so much it's like a second nature to me. No one will know. No one can ever know. No one will ever know.
I must be falling. Can I be falling? I think I'm slowly falling. Slowly falling. Falling.
# posted by Nikki @ 04:27 
